Anxiety recovery is salty

Healing is a messy journey. Often I find myself reacting to some past hurt, and bleeding on the current joys of life.  In a romantic relationship, it is very important for me to feel connected to the person. Even when the intimacy of the relationship by itself doesn’t demand that we speak to each other…

A little about self-worth

People can often tell you rich, complex stories about their lives. And they can be labeled as lies. In the strict morality of black and white, they are black. They are lies. They are the stories that people tell themselves and others, which could potentially/ plausibly be the stories of their lives if they did…

That’s how I Feel..

When I take off my heels after a long day at work,  And my feet find even footing again.  That’s how you feel.  When I take that first bitter sip of strong strong black coffee,  And the world feels right again.  That’s how you feel.  When I take off my work clothes and snuggle into…

The Dinner Date

We met each other at Chili’s. Just looking at him warmed something inside of me. It was only the 3rd time that we were meeting each other. After a chaste peck on the lips he sat down opposite me. I was both grateful for the distance and upset by it. Dinner was good. He had…

The Day After the First Night

I ubered back to my brothers’ very early on Sunday. He had a mid morning flight to catch and after last night I wanted to put some distance between us. Physically. As I peeled of my dress and got into the shower, I could see the marks beginning to take form.. around my nipples, under…

Pick effort. Pick yourself.

What takes effort is love Patience Generosity Gratitude Forgiveness Anger Jealousy Impatience Hate, are easy. It’s super easy to do the easy thing. We stick to the hard things as long as they are easy. The moment it gets tough, you ask – is this worth it? That point, precisely then is the tipping point….

Walls- only keep you in

Sad eyes on happy faces, So much hunger in round tummies, That thirst on wet lips, Driving by yourself in a long long car, Unlocking the door to a huge huge apartment, Curling up on the couch, To look at others do the same. Something is wrong somewhere. When did we start being so scared…

Relationships are so much work.

Relationships are so much work. You’ve got to listen To understand To care To speak with love And then do it all over again. In between all that, There are those “I am crazy about you” moments. When you feel that this. This is what the universe had been planning for you. That kiss. That…

How does it matter?

I love you. You can say as many times. It means nothing. If you don’t do anything about it.

Of Love and Loving

Love will come, because it will. Love will cherish you. Call you precious. Love will love you. Love will hurt you, but it will not mean to. Love will hold you, warm you. Fight you and let you. Love will ask “who are you” And then will find the answer with you.