How do you touch me without using your hands?

There is somebody out there who wants to be with me I can feel it in the way he looks at me The way he tries to hold my hand The way he ruffles my hair  Or how he kisses me on the forehead.   But I don’t remember any longer  What falling in love…

My idea of Love ❤️

I think of someone tall, with broad shoulders, a smile that lights up their eyes. Some salt and pepper hair, somebody who hugs with all their heart. I also think of how they pamper me when I am low, how comfortable they are with my silence. I feel how I might feel in their arms…

Hollow yet Heavy

People choose to leave. They disappear. They choose to end. People take away parts of you. They leave you feeling hollow. Things echo in you. With time the echoes die down. With time. But every time somebody leaves, Every time someone leaves with a part of you, Why do you feel heavy? Why is there…

Of heart breaks 💔

This time There was no sound.. It broke noiselessly. It wasn’t accompanied by the night time bouts of tears and hiccups, There were no blinding migraines the next morning, Nor the lump in the throat. This time it was noiseless. There were full echoes of the past in her head, There was some ache, There…

Inching to Perfection

We attract what we are.. we attract more of what we already are.. In every relationship, I look for where the person was damaged As if that might explain everything about them. In each conversation, I try to look for the implicit context, As if that might exactly be what they want to say but…

The Dinner Date

We met each other at Chili’s. Just looking at him warmed something inside of me. It was only the 3rd time that we were meeting each other. After a chaste peck on the lips he sat down opposite me. I was both grateful for the distance and upset by it. Dinner was good. He had…

The Day After the First Night

I ubered back to my brothers’ very early on Sunday. He had a mid morning flight to catch and after last night I wanted to put some distance between us. Physically. As I peeled of my dress and got into the shower, I could see the marks beginning to take form.. around my nipples, under…

One of the Good Days..

It was one of the good days. She woke to him nuzzling her neck, whispering sorry for what he had said yesterday. She teared up and he kissed them away. All forgiven and forgotten. They stayed in bed late, him talking about one of his students who just refused to look at his books and…

Sati Pratha

My dad told me this story last week. It has been going around in my mind. He got it on whatsapp in Bengali and read it out to me. Raja Ram Mohan Roy was very distraught. All his efforts at abolishing Sati were coming to naught. Nobody wanted Sati to be done away with. It…

Let it be..

Let the old love be, Don’t walk through moments, don’t only it them, Don’t look through old pictures, to find new meanings, Don’t look at the universe, willing it to give you new clues, Let the old love be. Leave it and walk into your life. That which was, can’t be changed, touched.. That which…